Nothing is certain


Nothing is certain in this life.

Sometimes something really devastating can have a pivotal impact on your life.

Thirty-four years ago this happened to me.

Much of my life for the last 34 years has been dark and took a completely different path than what I had originally planned. I spent a lot of time in self-pity and lived in a very small, dark world. I never knew what tomorrow might bring and I didn’t care. (Note: not all 34 years were bad. I was even able to go back to school during this time.)

Then 4 or 5 years ago (memory issues/chemo brain) I started to read again. Something so simple as reading caused me to begin to “wake up” and it inspired me to want to do more. At first it was reading for comfort, books I knew and loved, mostly fantasy and science fiction. Then I started diving into other styles and authors: Paulo Coelho, Dr. Wayne Dyer, Eckhart Tolle, Stephen Covey, Brendon Burchard. Nature, Science, Environmental, and so many more. Some were good, some really bad. However, I always learned something new and also realized how much I had forgotten.

Most self-help type books are common sense, just never practiced in life (until now).

I had all this knowledge. It was great, but I didn’t do anything about it. I wanted to put it into practice by reinventing my life from scratch. (It is not easy, but it is very possible—I am living proof.)

So, I started The Living Process. It’s been through its revisions and has been on hold a few times due to circumstances outside my control, but it’s working.

The last few months I have had dark days, nights, even weeks. It has caused me to change a few things, such as:

* Putting my phone out of reach before I go to sleep
* Having my main meal at lunchtime and a small snack around 3:00 pm
* Keeping my home tidy enough to have guests any time of the day or night
* And a few other changes

I’m not going to make any excuses. I take complete responsibility. It’s a mixture of not eating, exercising, and my health, medical issues and medications that have been the major cause of the darker times. I am working on it. Since I have not been able to go on my morning walks recently, on Monday I am going to start exercising again, slowly to start. I just need to adapt so I can continue. I’m really looking forward to getting started again.

I am determined and completely dedicated to my Living Process. A lot of the changes I have made are mainly due to my dearest friends (missing you) who have had the biggest influence on my process and life over the last few years. I became a forever vegan, and more environmentally responsible. I’ve even been getting back in shape and back into my art. It’s so important to have goals and friends like them in life.

I am changing my fate. I am no longer going to poison my body or my mind.

Be Kind 💚 Be Grateful 💚 Be Love 💚 Be the Change 🌎 Carpe Diem Always 🤟